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Farewell Ramadan, Hello Syawal
Tuesday, August 6, 2013 @ 9:33 PM // [0 letters]
 And in blink of an eyes, Ramadan has come and gone. Simply, let's say unbelievable? It feel like just yesterday I was having iftar with my hostelmates, while waiting for Ramadan the following day or ticking Ramadan ibadah target checklist that used throughout the month. And today, it's already Shawal. Wow. Sending Ramadan to the airport upon its departure makes my heart shake. Will you ever stop by again? And even if you do, will my heart still be steadfast on the deen? InshaAllah. The departure of this beloved and blessed guest has certainly left a void in my heart. Oh, how I miss the aura surrounding this beautiful month. Iftar with friends and dormmates at Dewan Makan, the iktikaaf at Masjid Hamidiah. But at last, as they say, all good things must come to an end, or must they?  I'm very sure many of us entered Ramadan with hopes of being purified of our sins and cleansed of our past evil habits. Whether they may have been coupling, cheating, backbiting, dishonesty, missing solat, or generally, being a Muslim only by IC without practicing. We all struggled to overcome out personal obstacles. We all tried our best to achieve our target. To accomplish all 30 juz of the Quran. to never miss Tarawih, to wake up for qiamullail. This and that. But again. Changing is always hard. For some of us, we failed time and time again to improve ourself. Maybe due to exams we missed Tarawih because we felt the "better need" of studying or probably skipped reading Quran we had to juggle with other responsibilities. For others, we watched ourselve achieve goals that we never thought possible. Regardless, the point is, you gave a shot. You tried. And even if you did not, believe that you still can. Now I'm not making up this all up. How could I be so sure? Think about it, if you're reading this, it's mean that you're still breathing. And if you're still breathing, it means that Allah has extended you the mercy of having another opportunity to repent. To turn back to Him. So please, wherever you may be along the spectrum of personal, character and spiritual development, don't be too hard for yourself and stay positive. Keep your head high. Forgive yourself, and move forwards. On the last day of Ramadan, me and my whole family were already at my grandmother's house where we were going to celebrate Eid. Deep down under, I felt sorrow. Once the imam azaans that Maghrib, that will be the last iftar. Or in other words, farewell Ramadan.
Later that night,
"Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar, Lailahaillallah
(Allah is Great, Allah is Great, there is none of worship except He)
Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar, walillahilHamd"
(Allah is Great, Allah is Great, and to Him belongs all Praise)
Reminiscing. I myself didn't know what to feel. Sad that Ramadan was over, or happy for Shawal has arrived. Listening to the takbir. at first felt great to be saying these wonderful words is unison however, once I actually started listening to and pondering over the weight of the words was saying, I became severely overwhelmed with emotions.
I stopped and remembered all of the trials and tribulations Allah brought me to - and got me through - during the blessed month of Ramadan. For the very first time, for the first day Sahur without my family, first day Iftar without my family, I struggled to finish the Quran. I had to balance between ibadah and exams and so many more during Ramadan. I remembered the painful moments, and the happy ones. SubhanAllah.
I remembered all of the Muslims who died before or during Ramadan. I also remembered the Muslims who were celebrating Eid in a hospital bed, sick and those fighting for their lives. I remembered the Muslims who were being oppressed and killed in places such as Syria, Palestines, Mesir, Somalia. I also remembered the orphaned children who had no family to celebrate with. I remembered the poor and hungry whose happiest moments this month - or even this year - may have been this day. I remembered the courageous and amazing people who came to Islam from another belief system, and may have had no one to celebrate this joyous day with. Allahurabbi :'(
With these thoughts whining through my mind, I was reminded of how much Allah had blessed me with - health, family, friends, freedom - and I prayed for all the above mentioned. I'm grateful. Alhamdulillah.
Ikhwah akhowat, for me, the month of Ramadan was truly a month of reflection. A month pondering . Also, it was month of increasing my supplications to Allah in both good times and bad. These are a couple of the habits that inshaAllah, I will try to maintain for the rest of my life. This is a glimpse into my evolution. And so I ask you, dear brothers and sisters in Islam, to reflect over the ways in which you've evolved during Ramadan, and to make intention to maintain those developments, biiznillah. May Allah accept my ibadah, and so will He accept yours. Taqabalallahuminkum.
Oh, and I hope it's not too late to wish all my dears readers Happy Eid Mubarak. Forgive my wrongdoings be it intentionally or unintentionally.
Salam alaik,
Syasya Syakirah
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